For the past week or so, I have felt like a pathetic single woman crying and eating Bonbons and obsessing over little uncontrollable details of my life. But I am starting to feel a little better, and I decided this afternoon that I felt like writing a blog post, so maybe I’m through with the worst of my little depressed phase. My father was moved out of Intensive Care last night. My sister has been sending me lots of updates by text message, and my mother has been to visit him in the hospital as well. I feel more comfortable with them both home (right after he was admitted both traveled out-of-state). Some of the other recent personal problems have been addressed as well, but a prognosis is a bit harder to define when a situation requires time to sort itself out.
I haven’t really been eating Bonbons and watching soap operas like a pathetic woman. Actually, I’ve been watching the first season of Breaking Bad and drinking beers, maybe with a breakfast bar or a yogurt. I don’t have much food in the house at the moment, and every time I look at that delicious box of macaroni and cheese in my pantry I wonder if I can convince someone to make it for me so I don’t have to get my lazy ass off the couch. Breaking Bad is really good. It moves super-slowly and it’s really depressing, but for some reason I find that enjoyable. It’s a welcome change from watching poker or shows about fat people. Today I went to get a flu shot. I don’t know why. My mother convinced me to. I guess when you’re a hypochondriac it makes sense to give yourself even a tiny level of defense against the flu. I also went for a run in the canyon, and to Costco to pick up prescription. Lastly, I visited a waxing studio for the first time in my life to receive some…uh…service. Don’t ask. It’s totally emasculating.
Oh, the LOST re-watch continues. We’re finishing up season one. Boone died last night. Everyone seemed pleased by it. That episode where the light in the hatch comes on as Locke is crying and asking for direction is epic. Theories involving Locke and “the man in black” who threatens to kill Jacob were discussed. Since “Deus Ex Machina” is the episode where Locke comes to give up a kidney for his father, a conversation started as to whether or not Locke was actually the man’s son, or if he was really immaculately conceived. If the latter scenario were true, Tom supposed that Locke was born “the man in black,” and after he dies he — kind of like Jesus — comes to learn the meaning of his existence, and realizes that in a human form he can successfully kill Jacob. That is to say, Locke, who has always felt he has a higher purpose, has always been the man in black. Hence the quote, “You have no idea what I’ve had to go through to be here” quote. He’s had to exist inside the body of poor John Locke for however many years before he could finally get to the island and kill Jacob. Interesting theory. Conversely, the general consensus around here is that Aaron will be to Jacob what Locke is to “the man in black”.
Other than that, I don’t have much to write today. I’ve been working and catching up on TV shows to pass the time between phone calls home. Tomorrow I’ll try to get back to regular, old, boring blogging. I had a great Korean BBQ dinner with mom over the weekend, so I’ll write about that. There was a softball game last week I didn’t write about (a new season started). I’ve got some other things to share. I’m going to visit Nicci next week in Alabama. That should provide me with some good blog fodder. I think I’m going to dress like a Klansman while I’m there, to conceal my horns from those who wish to inflict bodily harm on a new Jew in Alabama.
Lastly, I just want to take a moment to thank everyone who has taken time from their lives to send me an e-mail or a Facebook message, or leave a comment on the blog wishing me well. I felt like an idiot for posting my apology soon after I published it, but when I saw all the kindness directed towards me it felt really good to see some people who read this site genuinely care about my well-being. Fuck, one of the dude’s from the band BONG even left a comment! How ridiculous is that? So, yeah. I know I can be an asshole and a loudmouth and a boor sometimes, but I’m still human, and I thank you all for your support during my rough week. It’d be cool if my time of uncertainty somehow led to the discovery that my audience was made up of really hot naked chicks, and not just burly dudes who live in their parents’ basements, but hey, beggars can’t be choosers!
Seriously. Thank you guys. I hope things will turn around soon.
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